He's my solar return chart thanks to Cinzia Mastrosimone:
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
It's my 35th Natal Day!!!
Today's my birthday and I've been agonizing about whether or not to post my real age on my cam site....and I've decided I will. I'll represent horny hot 35 year old women, why not? Most of my money comes from mom-son role play anyway....
He's my solar return chart thanks to Cinzia Mastrosimone:
I'm not too clear on how to read solar return charts in Human Design. I plan to start the Rave ABC's course next Monday the 23rd.
He's my solar return chart thanks to Cinzia Mastrosimone:
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Channel of Mating & Channel of the Storyteller
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Friday, July 26, 2013
4th Line Design, Unconsciously Social
Here's a little refresher on the 4th line:
This is where we move into the upper trigram of the 6 lined hexagram. This is where the mechanics begin to shift. The upper trigram is transpersonal, rather than personal, and it's more of an outer directed process. There is an essential need to share with others.
Line 4 is the Opportunist, it's external, it's friendly. Like the 1st line, it's the foundation of the second floor of the "house" metaphor of the hexagram. The foundation here is concerned with human resources, having a social network, and transpersonal relationships. The 4th line can be very influential in it's network, here lies it's opportunities. The image of "brotherhood" or "sisterhood" is the theme. The binary here is kindness/meanness. The sphere of influence is connected to those who have already established friendship, rather than strangers (that's more 5th line territory).
I'm a 2/4 and currently I have so very few friends in my own area. It seems all my friends live online. I only have my husband and my mother in the area I live in...and it's been this way since I moved here in 2007... It's so difficult to make friends in Virginia Beach; when I lived in California the people there were so friendly, it was so easy to establish a group of friends. I'm still in touch with those people, but only online.
I've recently joined an all female stripper/pole dancing gym, which I love! I can kinda feel that I'll make a friend friend there, I can feel it starting. BUT, I have to relax and just let things happen. I've been so lonely for so long and I can kinda feel my open root wanting to rush into things, but for now, it's only a movie I watch....by that, I mean, I'm not rushing or instigating conversations, but I notice the old conditioning flowing up. These days I'm so used to the S and A of mine (Wait to Respond and Emotional Authority), that I can really respect that the world will come to me with some patience.
And I say I'm lonely, but I can see how my loneliness is a very 2/4 type of loneliness. I'm a Hermit, and I do need lots of alone time. And I'm a 4th line, which can be prone to burnout, so there, too, I take time for myself; add to that the procrastinating defined Emotional Solar Plexus, and I'm hard to get. I'm the kind of friend that you really have to reach out to me to get me to go out. It'll take me 3 months to return a phone call. But after years and years and years of no network, no aura to aura network....ughhh...really between opportunities...it's taking it's toll. So, I'm very happy to have joined a gym, very happy it's all women, since I'm married....can't wait to make a friend in this area. Someone enthusiastic about poling, or at least dancing all sleazy!
I'm reading through Lynda Bunnell's "The Definitive Book of Human Design" and see the as an unconscious 4th line it's important for me to be "called" into the right network in order to be nourished & for my influence to be contagious, in the right way. 4th lines are spreaders in every way, of ideas and disease. And as I'm a 2/4, I move between being a depleter/nourisher.
I've gotten into the wrong network before, just got into a situation completely incorrectly. When I was offered all these invitations by a projector and took him up on it, even though I was super nervous, even though I just jumped right into it without giving myself any time. Ended up not being able to pay rent and others paid for me; even though eventually I paid people back, the whole situation was tiresome and kinda ugly. So, I'm very careful now of really giving myself time, checking in to see how nervous I am of situations (Emotional Authority). I feel that situation got ugly, because normally I'm the generous one (2/4's are know for being very generous), paying for others, tipping big, etc.
I just have to wait for my new network. Patience is a virtue. I'd love to be able to afford to go to something like the HD Immersion in Arizona this September. I guess some other year...
http://www.humandesign-sedona-live.com/september.html
"The 4th line is about the human resources of the material plane; people are the biggest decisions and investments they make in their life." Ra Uru Hu.
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This is where we move into the upper trigram of the 6 lined hexagram. This is where the mechanics begin to shift. The upper trigram is transpersonal, rather than personal, and it's more of an outer directed process. There is an essential need to share with others.
Line 4 is the Opportunist, it's external, it's friendly. Like the 1st line, it's the foundation of the second floor of the "house" metaphor of the hexagram. The foundation here is concerned with human resources, having a social network, and transpersonal relationships. The 4th line can be very influential in it's network, here lies it's opportunities. The image of "brotherhood" or "sisterhood" is the theme. The binary here is kindness/meanness. The sphere of influence is connected to those who have already established friendship, rather than strangers (that's more 5th line territory).
I'm a 2/4 and currently I have so very few friends in my own area. It seems all my friends live online. I only have my husband and my mother in the area I live in...and it's been this way since I moved here in 2007... It's so difficult to make friends in Virginia Beach; when I lived in California the people there were so friendly, it was so easy to establish a group of friends. I'm still in touch with those people, but only online.
I've recently joined an all female stripper/pole dancing gym, which I love! I can kinda feel that I'll make a friend friend there, I can feel it starting. BUT, I have to relax and just let things happen. I've been so lonely for so long and I can kinda feel my open root wanting to rush into things, but for now, it's only a movie I watch....by that, I mean, I'm not rushing or instigating conversations, but I notice the old conditioning flowing up. These days I'm so used to the S and A of mine (Wait to Respond and Emotional Authority), that I can really respect that the world will come to me with some patience.
And I say I'm lonely, but I can see how my loneliness is a very 2/4 type of loneliness. I'm a Hermit, and I do need lots of alone time. And I'm a 4th line, which can be prone to burnout, so there, too, I take time for myself; add to that the procrastinating defined Emotional Solar Plexus, and I'm hard to get. I'm the kind of friend that you really have to reach out to me to get me to go out. It'll take me 3 months to return a phone call. But after years and years and years of no network, no aura to aura network....ughhh...really between opportunities...it's taking it's toll. So, I'm very happy to have joined a gym, very happy it's all women, since I'm married....can't wait to make a friend in this area. Someone enthusiastic about poling, or at least dancing all sleazy!
I'm reading through Lynda Bunnell's "The Definitive Book of Human Design" and see the as an unconscious 4th line it's important for me to be "called" into the right network in order to be nourished & for my influence to be contagious, in the right way. 4th lines are spreaders in every way, of ideas and disease. And as I'm a 2/4, I move between being a depleter/nourisher.
I've gotten into the wrong network before, just got into a situation completely incorrectly. When I was offered all these invitations by a projector and took him up on it, even though I was super nervous, even though I just jumped right into it without giving myself any time. Ended up not being able to pay rent and others paid for me; even though eventually I paid people back, the whole situation was tiresome and kinda ugly. So, I'm very careful now of really giving myself time, checking in to see how nervous I am of situations (Emotional Authority). I feel that situation got ugly, because normally I'm the generous one (2/4's are know for being very generous), paying for others, tipping big, etc.
I just have to wait for my new network. Patience is a virtue. I'd love to be able to afford to go to something like the HD Immersion in Arizona this September. I guess some other year...
http://www.humandesign-sedona-live.com/september.html
"The 4th line is about the human resources of the material plane; people are the biggest decisions and investments they make in their life." Ra Uru Hu.
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Wednesday, July 10, 2013
7 Centered Strategies
A discussion popped up on Facebook about whether or not to keep "working" on a relationship. Now, I'm married and I've had relationships in the past...but I've never felt the "work" part in relationships. I'm in or I'm out. But I've seen enough talk shows to get what people are saying.
Then Leela Swan Herbert had this to say: "Something to consider, perhaps, or not ...it's not about 'working' on the relationship...it is about discovering one's own self, becoming who we are designed to be...and if someone can support that process, honor it, witness it, be available to discuss the experience of it - then there is the possibility of relating. Relationships are a 7 centered construct, a contractual, strategic bond designed as a specific conditioning field with a particular goal (creating and raising children, business partners, survival strategies...)...it really isn't a question if someone knows if they want to work on the relationship or not - are you/they engaged in their process of experimenting with their design, with living who you are?" Leela
Working on things as a 7 centered strategy in a 9 centered world is an outmoded concept, what an idea?! I'm one of many objects in motion in this multiverse, there are people and events in my trajectory....so happy to be aware of STRATEGY & AUTHORITY and keep getting opportunities to use this method of decision making.....that slowly morphs into seeing how "I" have no choice, I'm simply skating along, swimming along, effortlessly.
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Then Leela Swan Herbert had this to say: "Something to consider, perhaps, or not ...it's not about 'working' on the relationship...it is about discovering one's own self, becoming who we are designed to be...and if someone can support that process, honor it, witness it, be available to discuss the experience of it - then there is the possibility of relating. Relationships are a 7 centered construct, a contractual, strategic bond designed as a specific conditioning field with a particular goal (creating and raising children, business partners, survival strategies...)...it really isn't a question if someone knows if they want to work on the relationship or not - are you/they engaged in their process of experimenting with their design, with living who you are?" Leela
Working on things as a 7 centered strategy in a 9 centered world is an outmoded concept, what an idea?! I'm one of many objects in motion in this multiverse, there are people and events in my trajectory....so happy to be aware of STRATEGY & AUTHORITY and keep getting opportunities to use this method of decision making.....that slowly morphs into seeing how "I" have no choice, I'm simply skating along, swimming along, effortlessly.
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
39: The Gate of the Provocateur
My unconscious 39 in my undefined Root is undergoing a long 3 year transit by Neptune in the 55 (Solar Plexus). As the transit started I actually got a job where I provoke people.....sexually.
"...So these people demand sexual attention. These are people that will tease you in a number of ways. This is the way in which they provoke you. What they are trying to do is to turn you on. They are not trying to turn you on the way the flirt does. They turn you on physically; they are trying to get you physically aroused, sexually aroused.
Whether they are conscious of that or not. And the way in which they do that, in which they tease you, mostly has to do with what they say. This is all about, in the end, being able to articulate. It is teasing with words. But not just teasing with words. These are people that can provoke you by showing you their body and not allow you access to it....and the 39 tries to provoke that spirit, tries to lock the 55 in. That's what it needs to do. So it arouses it.
Now look, that whole process of arousal is to create the necessary stimulation, the necessary vibration. This is all acoustic. The lights down low the music on. This whole stream is about breathing. This whole stream is about hearing. The stimulation has to be there. The arousal has to be there. This is not the marriage bond. It is not about the necessity to transform that arousal into active sexuality. It doesn't have to be. It can be unrequited love. It does not have to be consummated.
Remember, the moment that you fall in love through a romantic stream the biggest risk you take is actually physically making love. Because if it doesn't work it is over. So this is all about creating the necessary stimulation to maintain the attention. The longer this process goes on, the more arousal will take place. The more romance begins to bloom.... " Ra Uruhu
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"...So these people demand sexual attention. These are people that will tease you in a number of ways. This is the way in which they provoke you. What they are trying to do is to turn you on. They are not trying to turn you on the way the flirt does. They turn you on physically; they are trying to get you physically aroused, sexually aroused.
Whether they are conscious of that or not. And the way in which they do that, in which they tease you, mostly has to do with what they say. This is all about, in the end, being able to articulate. It is teasing with words. But not just teasing with words. These are people that can provoke you by showing you their body and not allow you access to it....and the 39 tries to provoke that spirit, tries to lock the 55 in. That's what it needs to do. So it arouses it.
Now look, that whole process of arousal is to create the necessary stimulation, the necessary vibration. This is all acoustic. The lights down low the music on. This whole stream is about breathing. This whole stream is about hearing. The stimulation has to be there. The arousal has to be there. This is not the marriage bond. It is not about the necessity to transform that arousal into active sexuality. It doesn't have to be. It can be unrequited love. It does not have to be consummated.
Remember, the moment that you fall in love through a romantic stream the biggest risk you take is actually physically making love. Because if it doesn't work it is over. So this is all about creating the necessary stimulation to maintain the attention. The longer this process goes on, the more arousal will take place. The more romance begins to bloom.... " Ra Uruhu
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Sunday, April 7, 2013
Deconditioning
''As
we understand from Human Design, deconditioning takes place through
making Authority based decisions about what we encounter through our
openness.'' Genoa Bliven
Our own Authority can either be center based or not (as in the case of Reflectors or certain types of Projectors).
This is as simple a breakdown as possible to understand what it means to ''decondition.'' There's no rejection of the ''not-self.'' We all have all 9 centers, 64 gates, & all the channels.....they may or may not be defined. Where we are not defined is where we meet the other.
Experiment with how it feels to use Strategy and Authority and the Deconditioning process has begun.
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Our own Authority can either be center based or not (as in the case of Reflectors or certain types of Projectors).
This is as simple a breakdown as possible to understand what it means to ''decondition.'' There's no rejection of the ''not-self.'' We all have all 9 centers, 64 gates, & all the channels.....they may or may not be defined. Where we are not defined is where we meet the other.
Experiment with how it feels to use Strategy and Authority and the Deconditioning process has begun.
Come visit me, Cliche, it's free to sign up!
VIEW MY LIVE SHOW HERE
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