Friday, December 21, 2012

A new b'ak'tun! 8 SWORDS

I pulled a card for today, the eve of the day I've been waiting for, for 15 years.
Kind of an odd message.  This is the 8 of Swords, the message here is one of being constricted, mentally.  Like feeling there's only ONE way to do things.  We're inhibited, limited, imprisoned.

In a sexual reading what we can expect is sexual slavery, confinement, could be nice if you're a sub or into BDSM.  There's domination by a person sexually perverted; abuse of sexual organs (like a cock and ball torture cage).  A sexual crisis.  A conflict of morals and desires.  An std or sti.

Reversed:  Endless nightmare sex; over sensitive clit or penis tip; difficulty with an overactive libido; opposition between lust and morality; terror of unknown phalli; treacherous hungers.  And I don't even know what this is: unforeseen orgasms.

(excerpted from my favorite tarot book: Theodor Laurence's ''The Sexual Key to the Tarot'')


IDK, I have some pretty great sex today myself, although, I couldn't bring myself to log on to  Too excited about my fifteen year wait for 8 am of December 22, 2012!  And mentally I couldn't get the fact that I didn't log on out of my head, but it's my day off from my dayjob....I just wanted to hang out, watch netflix, and make peanut butter balls for Christmas.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Here is sex that we already know about, partners that we already have.  Orgasms are enjoyed in the same way.  We definitely have sex when this card comes up.

Reversed:  There's opposition to our sexuality here, people who want us to ''spend'' it.  People like rapists, perverts, pederasts, etc.  Guard your sexuality.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

6 of SWORDS: Sexual Key

From Theodor Laurence's "The Sexual Key to the Tarot"

Sensuous journey upon the fluids of Bartholin glands; prolific seminal discharges; the fluidity of casual intercourse; sex mates easily acquired; an affluence of orgasms; also, the Querent will meet a new sex mate while on a trip or journey; also, expedient copulation.

Reverse: Be prepared for an unexpected proposal of sexual union.  This may come from a homosexual or lesbian or from a neighbor least likely to fornicate; also, sexual confessions or confessions of secret lust; in a lesser sense, beware of public disclosure.

Sunday, October 7, 2012


(received by Edward Kelley and Dr. John Dee)

I am the daughter of Fortitude, and ravished every hour from my youth. For behold I am Understanding and science dwelleth in me; and the heavens oppress me. They cover and desire me with infinite appetite; for none that are earthly have embraced me, for I am shadowed with the Circle of the Stars and covered with the morning clouds. My feet are swifter than the winds, and my hands are sweeter than the morning dew. My garments are from the beginning, and my dwelling place is in myself. The Lion knoweth not where I walk, neither do the beast of the fields understand me. I am deflowered, yet a virgin; I sanctify and am not sanctified. Happy is he that embraceth me: for in the night season I am sweet, and in the day full of pleasure. My company is a harmony of many symbols and my lips sweeter than health itself. I am a harlot for such as ravish me, and a virgin with such as know me not. For lo, I am loved of many, and I am a lover to many; and as many as come unto me as they should do, have entertainment.

Purge your streets, O ye sons of men, and wash your houses clean; make yourselves holy, and put on righteousness. Cast out your old strumpets, and burn their clothes; abstain from the company of other women that are defiled, that are sluttish, and not so handsome and beautiful as I, and then will I come and dwell amongst you: and behold, I will bring forth children unto you, and they shall be the Sons of Comfort. I will open my garments, and stand naked before you, that your love may be more enflamed toward me.
(inspired by John Bates, thank you)

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Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Look Forward to FUN

I was just wanting to know what kinda weekend I was going to have, to cam or not to cam.  Also, my husband is going to the National Rock Skipping Championship....I pulled the card FUN.  I just adore what Antero Ali describes as ''fun.''

''Beginning, Intermediate & Advanced FUN.  Beginning Fun is about getting high and rising above the dismal states of cultural boredom.  Intermediate Fun cultivates a poetic discipline for getting high: Rimbaud's aesthetics of delirium.  Advanced Fun is socially subversive and begins with charismatic transmission: how to render your high contagious; Timothy Leary's evolutionary agents of change.  All three stages of FUN implement post-survival agendas of sensory ecstasy, brain pleasure and accelerated perception.''

I absolutely want to be contagious, I have a lot of creative energy I'd like to transmit, shed, and share with admirers.  On a feedback loop of fun creativity.

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Friday, August 17, 2012

Vertical Oracle Card of the Day: Timeless

The card is Timeless with images of a clock as cycles of the moon.  This interpretation is from Antero Ali's Vertical Oracle:

''The 60-second minute/60 minute hour dictates the metronome beat of the forty-hour 5-day work week; time = money.  Those lives running on ''symbolic'' time benefit from its vast material output.  Alongside this mental plane, the real time of cosmic duration unfolds in biological cycles, lunations, and the interstellar orbits of planets and galaxies.  Its immaterial value benefits those lives in harmony with the cosmos-at-large.  Women know real time in menses.  Look at this card as a reminder of the ''timeless'' real time of your life long before it was trivialized into bits and pieces and dollar signs.''

Today is the new moon in Leo, a decent time to begin things.  Mercury retrograde is finally over, I know this past one was really communication stunting for me.  And yet, there's no rush.  Saturn and Mars are tightly conjoined in Libra right now.  Maybe a great time to stick to a discipline.  A natural cycle is highlighted today.  For me that's meant Slowing Down.  I do have an Open Root.....and I mentioned the Saturn-Mars conjunction, well in my own transit field, I've have Saturn sitting on my Mars since last December and it'll finally be over in September---I can't wait!!!!

While I have no fear of Saturn....I don't like how this transit brings so many arguments into my life---and I can't see where they will come from next!  This year alone my husband left me (for a few days) and he's never really been able to say why....he's just got extremely mad at me because I didn't want him to buy me a bike when we had no money.  So he was going to leave me over it.  WTF?  Then at my side job, there's been multiple explosions with coworkers, toward me, because people love to come in whenever they want--and I can't sit idly by about it--be on time motherfuckers!  Saturn loves time, Mars is ready to battle.
       Then there was extreme tension between my mom and I, and we normally never ever argue (but my grandmother just passed away--so feelings were tense anyway).  I just don't know where or when the next anger explosions will happen at me, or why.  I've just been practicing slowing down, not drinking, not smoking, not fanning any flames.  I've also been using that Saturn discipline on my Mars to take up pole dancing, a notoriously slow style of dancing that requires a lot of strength.  So, there are ways to make lemonade no matter the transit field.  No matter the cycle or duration.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Missing In Action

Just wanted to say how sorry I am for not getting back to anyone this year.  2012 has been very tumultuous to say the least.  I'm at the point where I have reached a point of emotional clarity in regards to working the phone at Psychic Power Network.  I've loved working with them and I highly recommend them, for their price, their value, their work philosophy, and their psychics.

I cannot, however, keep working on the phone.  It's 2012 and it's time for something new.  What I sense in my trajectory is a new website and a new medium.  In a few weeks, or a month from now, I may be working with Oranum.  I'll have my own channel, my own free chat via webcam, and, of course, exclusive readings done for you.

In the free chat I'll be there hanging out and describing the fundamentals of Human Design and finding your own authority.  In exclusive chats I'll be doing personal readings for you using tarot, pendulum, astrology, and/or Human Design.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Dream Rave

Tomorrow I get to have my first Dream Rave reading with Kumud and I am so very excited.

I'm very excited for this because I've always had incredible dream recall my whole life.   For years I kept dream journals and had to invent a method of writing my dreams down because I remember all the dreams I have every night and it even with my abbreviated method it still takes up to and hour and a half to write it all down.
So relieved to discover HD and hear what this perspective offers about what dreams really are doing.  (Hint, they are a propaganda war set to condition our weakest point)

So relieved to not get caught up in the drama of my dream life any more.  

I no longer feel guilty for not journaling!  This is great and I'm really looking forward to seeing what kind of conditioning my dream life has been enabling.  My dreams these days usually concern sex and flying....very god and demon realm happy to begin looking at these images with a newer perspective and dig into my own authority.

Saturday, July 21, 2012


-excerpted from

The wheel is divided into four Quarters. Each Quarter is composed of 16 consecutive Hexagrams and begins with a variation of the Right Angle Cross of the Sphinx and ends with a variation of the Right Angle Cross of the Four Ways.

The Four Quarters are Initiation, Civilization, Duality and Mutation.

Quarter of INITIATION - purpose through mind - the witness returns. expansion of mind through the penetration of form. Deeply involved in the exploration of form, grasping the essence of what it is to be. Deeply focused quarter. Process of what it like to return (13th gate) the witness. Truly seeing what being is. To see.

Quarter of CIVILIZATION - womb to room - counter point of Initiation - transform energy into the form. Energy into action. Not enough just to see must build the form principle. Can not explore the exploration of mind with out the body. It is the physical plane. All the throat gates - no single channel of manifestation. Hard to get things done on one's own. No motor no consistent energy. 53 New beginnings 52 sit still and concentrate - depression of the formats - how depressing it is to build a civilisation. Money and the material plane. Purpose through form. Talking and learning about it.

Quarter of DUALITY - measure for measure - purpose through bonding - must make more - 59-6 biological principles for reproduction - all the fears from the spleen centre are in this quarter. Bonding is not going to be easy. Bonding as a purpose - absolutely must live design because having bonding as a theme all the not self attributes get amplified, bitterness, anger, frustration, disappointment. Need a clear level of consciousness in relationships. Whole channels 59-6, 64-47, 46-29. Mind and body, fertility, split definition. Bonding and every single fear you can think of. Three complete channels, keeping us moving and active with worrying on the mental plane, what is the meaning of everything. Bonding takes time.

 Quarter of MUTATION - purpose through transformation - accepting death - display of uniqueness - quarter begins with the 1st hexagram - the creative. The ultimate mutation is creative uniqueness - to be yourself. We are unique and that is magical and mystical. Mechanical correctness to find purpose. No spleen, root, throat. 10-34 following your convictions. Mutation needs stubbornness, pulse energy, mutation happens in between. Lots of stress and pressure to move and get there and then you start again to initiate something. Mutation always comes out of the old. 60 Limitation, 5 stay with something, 9 concentrated logical pattern directed into the future. Accepting the end of one process to get to another. Transformation - accepting death. The witness returns, through the womb, to build and bond, make more, measure and die.

I just bought the audio for my incarnation cross, Right Angle Cross of Eden from Human Design UK.  I thought I would be hearing about Eden, but it's mostly about the Quarter of Duality, and I'm not that familiar with the Quarters.  The audio I bought is a section of a lecture that I'm missing the visuals Ra's using for the lecture.  Apparently, the RAX of Eden is really concerned with getting laid.  And yeah, that's me, for sure. 

Thursday, March 15, 2012

What is Human Design?

As you can see above in the Bodygraph, this is a map of the energy centers in your body.  Human Design is like Astrology amplified.  Where with Astrology you can get a list of characteristics about yourself and predictions with transits, Human Design can give you the tools for self-assessment that let you know and feel you are on your correct unique path.  It’s a synthesis of the I Ching, the Chakra energy system and Lunar Astrology from India, Arabian Stellar Astrology, the Kabbalah, Western Astrology, Physics, Astronomy, Biology, and Chemistry.

“The Human Design System is not a belief system. It does not require that you believe in anything. It does not require that you believe in me. It is not stories. It is not philosophy. It is a concrete map to the nature of being. It is a logical way in which we can see ourselves.

With Human Design, just knowing the simple mechanics of your design is enough to make a vast difference in your life. The irony of what it is to be a human being is that we’re caught at the surface of understanding and accepting our nature and the cosmos around us. We are just at the surface. It doesn’t matter how intelligent we are. It doesn’t matter the labels that we attach to that intelligence – whether we call it “enlightened” or whether we call it “genius”. There is a vast underlying ignorance of how our bodies operate.

The Human Design System is a reading of your genetic code. This ability to be able to detail the mechanics of our nature in such depth is obviously profound because it reveals our complete nature in all its subtleties. However, it is not necessary for you to know Human Design in great depth. That is the job of the professional analyst.

What this work aspires to communicate is simply the surface mechanics of your nature. That will give you grounding in your life that is immediately going to bring a difference to your life process.

These essential truths are simple because they are mechanical. The way in which our genes operate is purely mechanical, and the moment we try to interfere with their operation we descend into a life of confusion, chaos, and pain. In the end, our genes will have their way.

We are passengers in these bodies. We are passenger consciousness experiencing life going by. Buddha taught that the body is not yours. It is not. Yet at the same time, we are totally dependent on it. This is the tragedy of a sick body. We are totally dependent on our vehicles. To learn how to operate them properly immediately brings benefits. This is not complex and it will not be in complex language. It is very straightforward and very logical. It is accessible to anyone of any age. It is knowledge for the world.

In my teaching of Human Design and the training of Human Design analysts, students of mine have ranged from fourteen years old to being well into their eighties. There is no limitation and there is no barrier denying anyone from grasping these essential truths about themselves. This is not simply about saying, “Aha, I’m this or I’m that”. This is not just another profiling system. It is about having the opportunity to do something with the knowledge. It is about being able to be able to act on it and experiment with its logic. This brings the remarkable experience of finding and ultimately living one’s true life.”–by Ra Uru Hu, founder of The Human Design System

Remember Only Love

”Forget everything else: remember only love. Love each and every being. Don’t bring in your likes and dislikes. Don’t make love synonymous with your liking. People almost always do that: they call their liking their love. Then it becomes difficult to love that which you don’t like. But love has nothing to do with liking or disliking, it is a totally different phenomenon.”  Osho


It’s simple, the universe exists inside me, it exists inside you – without us, there is no consciousness. I want you to know you are more than just an object in space – We are the space and time for everything to exist in.

All problems arise when I separate myself from everything else (that’s what my mind & senses do). When I eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil – when I identify myself with my thoughts (eat the fruit) then I leave the garden of Eden (lose my true nature).  We are more than our thoughts alone.

Our unique true selves are to be treasured and accepted.  Love Yourself!