XXI The World Rx

Page of Swords

IX Hermit

What am I doing today? Stubbornly refusing to go anywhere? It's still BoB's Christmas/New Years vacation and we've been hanging out inside because of the snow and the fact that it's still Mercury Rx (and about to turn direct and into it's shadow period) keeps putting off any plans we start to put together...

Is the Page of Swords an outside source of bad news? Or what? I would loooove it if BoB decided to take off for a day and night without me...then I could go out and have dinner by myself with a good book...and maybe hook up with Meghan and go hang out all dressed up somewhere...but *sigh* that's probably not going to happen...I'm just fantasizing with the Hermit showing up...

Sexuality Spread

1. The way I perceive my own appearance
2. That's how I think I appear to the opposite sex
3. That's how I really appear
4. Advice for making a better impression
5. My relation to sexuality



6. The way I enjoy it
7. My off-limits
8. My special fetish
9. My unfulfilled wish
10. Advice how to fulfill this wish


11. My inhibitions
12. Reason for them
13. Advice how to deal with them
14. Advice how my partner may help me

I've just discovered this spread over at Tarotforum.net and decided to try it out. I usually don't go for huge spreads like this, but it seemed fun. Time to whip out my favorite tarot book, ''The Sexual Key To The Tarot'' by Theodor Laurence.

The way I perceive my own appearance is loving and possibly in relation to how my partner thinks of me. How I think I appear to the opposite sex is represented by the 3 of Wands, I guess I look helpful? Or shit, needy? Like I want help? Like I'm frustrated?

How I really appear is shown by II High Priestess, like I am very deep. Very deep and mysterious. A ''dream girl.'' Geographically symbolized, sexual gratification is ''up,'' sexual frustration is ''down.'' The crown that she wears with the horns on either side pointing upward (phallic symbols) indicates her mental awareness of the needs of male phalli. It is this penile awareness which makes her the ''perfect woman,'' she who is cognizant of all the sexual facts of life, ''a girl after one's own heart.'' She exists in all women once they recognize their true sexual role in a man's life.

On her breast is a large solar cross...This emblem symbolizes the sanctification of the ''heart,'' from whence comes her uninhibited sexual expression and free spirit in her sexuality with men of her choice; where ''sin'' does not exist. In love she will utilize her sexual knowledge, ardent passion, and her vagina consecutively or simultaneously with ''all her heart,'' and the man in her life will know complete and gratifying sexual ecstasy.

In her hands, inscribed with the word ''TORA,'' is a scroll partly covered by her robe...That the scroll is partly concealed implies that her sexuality is only partly objectified. The complete woman is not evident simply because she induces sexual pleasure. The scroll (phallus), half hidden, signifies that a man who is true to her, who has won her ''heart,'' will find in her, via the path of her objectified free and open sexuality, deeper and unforeseen delights.
As for the word ''Tora,'' this and and the word ''penis'' each vibrate, numerologically, to 9, the mystical number denoting completeness, fulfillment.

She is seated between two pillars, one dark and one light...the symbolization is threefold. One, like the half hidden scroll, the dark and light pillars (phalli) represent the secret and the obvious respectively, the two aspects of her total sexuality. Two, as symbols of erected, sexually-charged phalli, the two pillars signify her acceptance of man and his penis without discrimination, yet another indication of her free spirit in sexual matters. Three, the bloomed, flowering heads of the pillar-phalli are portents. They symbolize her promise of eruptive and violent orgasms for men with whom she cohabits.

Her dress is flowing and gauzy..these represent continuity of sexual expression.

Her garment is blue...signifying radiant emanation of mind, spirit, and body, each of which or all of which insure sexual fulfillment.

She represents to the Querent the perfect woman all hetero men dream about and long for, the woman who can satisfy their sexual desires far beyond their wildest thoughts. She intuitively knows the value to a man of a loving and sexually expressive female who can gratify him. She is the spirit of motherhood and is associated with the earth from which all things flow. A woman of the High Priestess-nature will please a man in every way she can, barring no sexual activity. She does not recognize sexual perversion, ''sin'' does not exist for her where love is concerned.

Advice for making a better impression is shown by the Queen of Swords Rx. Um, yeah, reign it in a bit. After all that High Priestess imagery, I can come across as this Queen Rx ..to say, suppress some of that desire...possibly a better impression may be a sense of false virginity, false chastity.

My relation to sex is shown by the King of Wands...now I don't really understand the meaning of this placement in the first place. I was going to leave this position out...but left it in for some reason even though I don't understand what it's trying to point out, I mean, ''relation to sex?'' I relate to it with a man because I'm heterosexual?

The way I enjoy it is like the Queen of Wands. Fuck yeah I do! I really get into it!

My off-limits: 3 of Swords Rx....I suppose getting back together with ex-boyfriends. Um, yeah, that's appropriate since I just got married. I was wondering what would possibly show up in this position...since I'm up for just about any act. So this feels right.

My special fetish, Page of Swords Rx. He may represent a dark communication, but not an unwelcome one...dirty talk. Absolutely.

My unfulfilled wish, 7 of Wands Rx. Let's see, the 7 of Wands Rx has to do with plumbing my own depths. Dispelling fear because peace is near...Having a position that is stronger than I think, don't let anyone take advantage of me or my insecurities. My unfulfilled wish is to not be indecisive, to not hesitate. It's to have more patience, not to make unwise decisions, or feel threatened. Wow, that's pretty deep. I do normally feel insecure about sex, in the sense I always feel like I'm not getting enough sex. So I cling to what I do get, I always feel like it's going to run out somehow, I need to be having it often!!! Hmmm...this is a card I'm going to ponder for a bit, it's giving me something to really sit down and consider.

Advice how to fulfill this wish, IX Hermit Rx. Don't take my own advice...lol, what? (I'm interpreting that in the traditional sense that when the Hermit comes up reversed it shows you the Querent isn't taking their own advice)

The Hermit lives in a world of attainment. He is not a seeker. He is not lost. Some have rendered the meaning of this card as such but they are in error. The Hermit has found what men seek. He has arrived. He is home. He is a knower. The light he carries is not used to find his own way. He stands upon a high place above the world. The light is for those who follow, that they may see where they are going. The Hermit's message is: That where I am, ye may also be. The staff, a phallic symbol, in his left hand does not relegate sexuality to oblivion as in the case of the Hierophant, but rather signifies that sexuality, once mastered, need no longer occupy a place of supreme importance.

The Hermit-nature, like the Charioteer, has attained sexual excellence, but not by conquest. Here is a lover of the 9th order who has tasted as much of sexual experience as the ferocious Charioteer, but whereas the he is demanding and mercurial in his sexual relations, the Hermit-nature is the gourmet who has given countless females sexual gratification. The Charioteer may bring a female to violent orgasm but the Hermit is capable of producing and maintaining a steady, even flux or orgasmic bliss in a female. The one gains merely sexual gratification, no matter how many women he fornicates, whereas the Hermit, gaining sexual satisfaction in process, also gains knowledge of female desires and insight into their sexual motivations and needs--the secret of his complacency.

The blue in his cap (traditional), which covers his mind symbolically, denotes the sexual knowledge which he possesses and applies effectively. The Hermit-nature need not brandish a conquering sword (the dominating penis), but may proceed through life secure in the knowledge of female needs and desires. He is content with the act that he can readily supply what women want, and more. Though his head is bowed, take note that his shoulders do not sag as though in defeat. The Hermit-nature is more than he appears to be. Beneath his cloak of humility is hidden the body of a 100% man. Masculinity and sexual prowess are at his beck and call, beneath his unassuming exterior. They come to the fore, wherever and whenever they are required. Any female in need of such will be more than satisfied.

The Hermit-nature is trustworthy, like the proverbial Dutch Uncle. The rampart, domineering Charioteer may not kiss and tell, but the fact of sexual conquest will show in his demeanor and often on his face, like the cat that ate the canary. But the Hermit-nature will never reveal anything. His countenance and bearing will conceal the fact of sexual escapades forever. This secretive quality greatly enhances the Hermit-nature's desirability. Secretiveness, coupled with his unassuming behavior, makes the Hermit-nature an ideal bed partner for love hungry housewives. The Hermit-nature is not unattainable, the true mystical meaning of the eminence and the beacon. The card says: What I know and experience, you also may know and experience.

In a reading this card means: Sexual enjoyment of the highest degree; attainment of libidinal knowledge; understanding of the needs and desires of the opposite sex; prudence in illicit affairs.

My inhibitions are represented by the 10 of Pentacles...I'm at a loss...I'm pretty uninhibited mostly...this cards represents to me family. And I guess that's one thing I'm scared to death about, getting pregnant...even though I'm 32 and currently have never even had one pregnancy scare...and my husband wants kids but I'm not sure if I'm ready at all...

Reason for the inhibitions, the 5 of Pentacles Rx...extremely wasteful expenditures...yeah sure, I've never made much money and it seems like such an overwhelming financial problem to have a child or children when I'm not making much money.

Advice how to deal with these inhibitions, the 3 of Pentacles Rx. Immaturity, lacking direction, not using abilities with mastery...how does that help?

Advice how my partner may help me is the 7 of Swords Rx. Goddamn 7 of Swords, this card gets me because I can't really figure it out. I have nothing concrete on this card at all...he could help with counseling, getting me to ask for help? What?

After Christmas, Before New Years

X Wheel of Fortune Rx

Knight of Wands Rx

2 of Swords

BoB and I were planning on going to western VA yesterday to visit some of his family, but we got SNOWED IN! Very very rare around here, you know, at the beach, for snow to happen in the winter; and certainly never this early in winter. We were loosely planning on going today, but judging by these cards I do not think we are going anywhere. Yay! I didn't want to leave anyway!

All the cards indicate, in their own way, the same theme of not moving. Being in the same place awaiting an outside force to remove the inertia.

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MY BROTHER JUST CALLED AND HE'S STUCK IN CONNECTICUT!




He got stuck in the drive down from Maine last night, got stuck in the terrible East coast snowstorm last night. His car broke down and luckily he met some girls who let him crash with them. Unfortunately, when he called the mechanics today and asked if he could get his car they basically laughed at him. There's two feet of snow on the ground and they don't think he's going anywhere. He called me to find out if is going to get on the road today?

4-Card Spread With Positional Meanings

1. What is happening? Knight of Cups

2. Answer to question. King of Cups Rx

3. Guidance advice. 2 of Wands Rx

4. What will happen. 10 of Cups

The answer card, position 2, is reversed so I take that as a NO answer to his original question. But the number 4 position, what will happen, is the 10 of cups and that is really positive...wait, the King is in the same suit as the knight...I think our dad, Billy is going to go and help him out. But he won't be too happy about it.

Right Before Christmas Shopping Spread

Knight of Cups

XI Justice

III The Empress Rx

I wonder if I'll get to have sex today? (Jesus, with my husband, it is such a struggle...and we're newlyweds for christsakes! we should be having sex all the time...) I'm just going by the Knight and the upright sword depicted in the Justice card...

Looks like money will be tight for the gifts with the Empress Rx...that's fine, we can make cards instead, I'm not going to stress about gift giving. It's not like we have kids to try to not disappoint. Just parents and grandparents to shop for and if we can't afford gifts, that's fine.

BoB and I have planned on going to see a band tonight, and there's an office party...the Empress could mean we won't win at the raffle tonight? And the Knight of Cups hasn't come up for me before...maybe someone else will flirt with me at the show? Eh, we'll see...I don't think a consistent card shows up for BoB, like it used to for Jack (a previous boyfriend I was with for 8 years).

Been A Couple Days...

VII The Chariot

7 of Wands

3 of Wands Rx

I want to accurately predict my day with these daily spreads. In the past here I haven't done that so much, because I do the spreads as soon as I wake up and I guess I'm not all that awake. Or, I just know my days are so much the same they blur into each other so I don't really predict the essence of each day that well...anyway, I want to improve on that.

Today's forecast seems to start out with energy! Two cards from the energetic suit of wands and the Chariot. He's covered in armor and beside him is the 7 of Wands, showing a person who's alert and on the lookout, with a big stick. Talent, skills, and efforts could prove to be wasted with the 3 of Wands Rx...so that's something to lookout for.

I haven't logged into work for the past 4 day...I will be doing that today! I've had horrible menstrual cramps for the past two days and it looks like today I'll be feeling better.

The Chariot is a card I usually take literally in a reading, I usually associate it to an actual car when I see it in a reading. For me today though, I don't see myself going anywhere, so I will take it in a more metaphorical interpretation.

4 of Cups

I Magician Rx

Knight of Wands


4 of Cups, discontent, boredom; need of re-evalution. Couldn't care less what really happens. No motivation. Too much of a good thing, life too easy, just won't make the effort. Emotionally introverted, looking for a spiritual level of satisfaction. No one seems to understand. Could be a part in the offing that will help brighten things up...on Saturday is my mom's Christmas party. The Magician Rx is telling me to try harder..then there is the Knight...is it me? Is it someone else? He speeds things up can get me going today.

I am really tired right now, it's 7:45 am and it's freezing outside. I took some nyquil late last night in order to go to sleep...after some frustrating sex with my husband. (he came too early, me not at all, even after a valiant effort.) Just need to get going, take some calls, make some money...

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gaaa, I'm so slow in the morning. Maybe I shouldn't do a daily spread as soon as I wake up? I never seem to accurately predict my day anyway...well rarely, because I'm still half asleep.

The Knight of Wands was obviously my brother coming into town!

Knight of Pentacles Rx

7 of Wands

10 of Swords Rx

I think BoB may come home early today due to the ice pellet storm that's supposed to happen around 4pm. The 7 is saying that no matter the adversity I show strong character and the 10 is saying that intense personal pain is now receding.

2 of Cups Rx

XIV Temperance

XXI The World Rx

A mild fight with a friend, BoB? And the Temperance card suggests I shouldn't be the one to make the first move. It will just be caused by some confusion. The advice here is to slow down and be patient, Temperance. And I'll likely have to do some cooking today, I should call my mom about that. She wanted me to do some cooking for this weekend's Christmas party. XXI The World Rx, stubbornness won't help anything.

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BoB did come home in a shitty mood, more disappointed than anything else. At work he got diesel sprayed all over the coat he spent so much time fixing up to be super warm. His one warm coat stinking of diesel, so he had to spend all this time trying to clean it, and it still had diesel all over it. In fact, I'm still working on it now. Is that what Temperance maybe was referring to, the correct mixing of chemicals for cleaning out diesel. Well, he did it wrong, World Rx, and when I've showed him some correct ways of getting it out, he still sullenly kept doing it the way he was previously. Oh, well, I'll have better luck with him today (Thursday).

Jumper Card

IX The Hermit (jumper)

6 of Swords Rx

Queen of Swords Rx

The Hermit card jumped out at me, I suppose it would be wise for me to be alone today and think or meditate. I'm alone ALL the time, so that part isn't hard...I guess today will be a period of withdrawal and caution leading to some insight.

Saturn Is In My 3rd House and Touching Everything

Heavy-hearted ***
Valid during many months: During this time you are able to achieve a most unusual balance between your material and your spiritual needs, and you see the relationship between them so that you can build your life upon both of them equally. This influence helps you bring your spiritual ideals into focus in the material world so that you can see precisely what role they play in your life. Consequently this is a time of sober reflection and deep understanding about your life on several planes.

This is a time of serious thought. Your mood will not be especially light- hearted, but you will be in a position to make great breakthroughs in understanding. You will be able to deny yourself rewards that you have wanted in the past, because now you can see that if you wait a bit, your daily life will come closer to your ideals. You are in the right frame of mind for disciplined self-denial and sacrifice without being a martyr. In other words, you are realistic about what you are doing.

Now you can work to further your ideals, such as working for religious or charitable organizations, spiritual groups or whatever. In general you will be attracted to groups of people who share your views, and you will be able to express your philosophy better in a group than by yourself. This influence has the effect of making your ego subservient to higher needs, so that if you believe strongly in what you are doing, you will be able to work hard even if given very little credit or positive reinforcement.

With this influence there is the danger of taking your own actions too seriously. This can be a very covert form of egotism in the name of spiritual awareness and devotion, and no form of egotism, even if it goes by another name, is compatible with this influence.

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Saturn Sextile Neptune, ,
activity period from beginning of December 2010 until middle of September 2011

9 Of Swords

XVIII The Moon Rx

Page of Cups

Looks like I'll have a lot on my mind, I'll be worried...about ?

The Moon Rx is telling me to be patient and not to let my imagination get the best of me, don't take any risks at this time and not to argue with any anyone, just be patient.

And the page indicates good news, probably no cause for worry at all anyway.

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I woke up because BoB was texting me, Page of Cups. I don't know about that Moon Rx...still so fucking subtle for me...

The 9 of Swords did predict some bad dreams I had though...I was dreaming I was a various dream jobs without a shirt on. Gary Busey was there and learing at me and asking why I didn't have a shirt on...all I could say was I was depressed, then I found a bunch of clothes, like three dresses all layered on each other, it wasn't very pretty, but I'd still end up with out a shirt on, it was pretty embarrassing. Then I started getting harassed (the guy from ''Little Children'') was at Pop's Diner with me and I knew I was going to get raped if my boss didn't get rid of him, I has to explain to my boss the difference between Tolerance and Judgment, and how it isn't bad to use your Judgment, it's there to protect you and the ones you care about. I was trying to get him to get rid of the rapist. And there was a bunch of anxiety cooking dreams about Pop's mixed with Stephanie from Dick's, all the shitty jobs rolled together. And I was remembering how awesome I was at Toni's, how in control I was and on top of things, but how it just isn't like that anymore. I don't have anything together and nothing to call my own.

Saturn Conjunct Pluto

Confinements ***
Valid during many months: During this time you may have fewer resources available for doing what you want, and you may have to focus the available resources on more restricted and concentrated objectives. The effects of this influence are several. First, structure in your life will change significantly, but not suddenly or without warning. The changes brought about during this time are inherent in what is being changed, if you look carefully. It is rather like an inevitable conclusion of a situation. During this period some things will come to an end or an old order of life will cease. On a metaphysical level, this influence means that factors are now being incorporated into the structure of your life that will later bring about evolution and growth. This process involves getting rid of old structures. What happens now will have great consequences in fourteen years.

On a material level, this influence often causes financial problems or other kinds of shortages. Sometimes government or other officials will impose heavy burdens that greatly restrict your freedom of movement. It is also possible that some incident or accident may affect your health and thereby restrict your freedom of movement.

All of these effects confine your energies so that later they can be focused upon matters that will require your full attention. If your energy is spread too thin, later crises will be much more difficult to bear. Then you will have to go through a most unpleasant house-cleaning of everything in your life that interferes with your natural pattern of evolution.

As you are more and more restricted by circumstances and the need to use your resources conservatively, do not simply hold in your energies. Build new structures to correct the problems you face now, and concentrate all your energy on bringing about necessary evolution in your life.

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Saturn Conjunction Pluto, ,
activity period from 2 December 2010 until middle of September 2011

Looks Tiring

XXI The World

2 of Cups

Knight of Swords

Meh, looks exhausting. The World reminds me that I might be menstruating today, the ''end'' of that little non-bleeding journey. And the other two cards look tiring as well. Like the exchange between the couple on the the 2 of Cups mixed with the rough energy of the Knight of Swords...BoB may have have one his ''out to get everything'' days that just means he's frustrated with life and there's nothing I can do about it. Maybe I should just get out of here for a day?

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Easy, easy relaxing day! Hung out with BoB, inside, because it rained all day. And BoB got riled up on some message boards, for example Girls Shouldn't Have Ideas: Abstinence Only CampaignGirls Shouldn't Have Ideas: Abstinence Only Campaign. He was really funny, and we had a great day of lounging around.

Oh, and I didn't start menstruating today...so that was wrong about the World.

Delay

X The Wheel of Fortune

10 of Swords

Ace of Wands Rx

A woman over at the Aeclectic Tarot Forums named Amanda04 does something called a ''Summary Card.'' She adds together the numerals on the cards, excluding the court cards, to get a summation of the reading. For this reading I get III The Empress, and that's a nice soft landing for this little daily spread. Funny too that yesterday's Summary Card is now in this spread, The Wheel of Fortune.

Striving, that's all I'm seeing for today. Trying to do things, but getting set back, delay. It is the first day of Mercury Retrograde after all.

Summary Card: X Wheel of Fortune

Page of Cups Rx

5 of Pentacles

V The Hierophant

An issue with mail today, like I won't get my paycheck today? Because the Page Rx is beside the 5 of Pent's? We'll see. And I have to obey all the rules...Hierophant. I need to just keep my head down and work work work. Keep the house clean, stay focused.

This is the second time The Hierophant has shown up for me this week, but I don't normally have to deal with any large institutions...except now I'm married, does that count?

Anyone want to jump in with suggestions?
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Oddly, I got a good email today, someone requesting my services...so that's great. And I'm taking the suggestion of the 5 of Pentacles and going to jump on that!

II High Priestess Rx

3 of Swords Rx

IX The Hermit

Will I try to look up an ex on Facebook (HP Rx + 3 of Swords Rx)?

It looks like I'll want to open up to meditation, but not get it right and just end up alone all day.

6 of Swords

5 of Wands

XVIII The Moon Rx

Hmmmm...the 5 of Wands doesn't bode well. My big plans today were to finally decorate the house, which I have never done, for Christmas. Went to my mom's and she gave me boxes and boxes of decorations, way too much. I wanted to change the house before BoB comes home. The 6 of Swords seems to be fair in showing this presto-chango idea I have.

The Moon Rx....deceit? Or does this just go with the theme or redecorating? Changing appearances?

Any suggestions on what today brings?

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Yeah, BoB wanted to fight for no reason when he came home. He hated the smell in the house (I cooked bacon for the first time ever) and he hated the redecorating. He accused me of being drunk all day because he found a cork in the trash. I guess he goes through the trash???? He spies on me in subtle ways...I was redecorating and in doing so, I cleaned in places I wouldn't ordinarily...he accused me of hiding money from him. I mean, he was all over the map...

The Light, The Boundary, and The Freedom

XIX The Sun

V The Hierophant

8 of Swords Rx

This looks positive, better than yesterday's dark, yet irrelevant, reading. The Sun shows today will be a good day, things will go well, I will be successful. The Hierophant shows I will follow the rules and possibly come up against boundaries, but if I stay in established parameters, this will be fine. And the 8 of Swords show me breaking out of my isolation.

Today started when an old friend called me out of the blue, so that's cool. Trying to plan ahead for seeing people at Christmas sounds pretty good. And my other plan is to finally go over to my mom's and get some Christmas decorations. Currently, I just came back from the gym, and my back is in significant pain.

It must have started two weeks ago...I had a crick in my upper back. Just couldn't crack it, so I had BoB massage me. But it was the type of pain that couldn't be massaged out. Started taking tylenol hoping it would go away, but when a week went by, I realized it wouldn't and I need to make an appointment with a chiropractor...still need to do that, the pain isn't letting up and today it's so much worse. I figured exercise would help, but no...

Queen of Swords

Page of Swords

XIII Transition (Death)

Holy crap! What's going on today? Here I am, hanging out with BoB (my husband), having an average weekend. Better than average really, he's working on some clothing projects he has, I've gone to gym and am watching Star Trek Voyager...my only plan was to maybe leave the house to go see my mom. She has some Christmas decoration for me to come and pick up...but these cards suggest I'll be dealing with some intense subjects...Bad news, a lot to think about, and the end of something...hmmm.

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Yeah, no. Nothing negative happened. So I will keep a look out for anything started today.

Juggle, Wait, and Trouble

2 of Pentacles

7 of Pentacles

King of Swords Rx

Ooh, don't like the looks of the King of Swords Rx. I never leave the house so I don't know what kind of serious trouble I could even get in...he represents and authority, like the cops, who don't seem to be on my side...huh. Let me go and look at the last time he came up. November 29th and June 10th are the last recorded times he came up, and nothing. I'll need to look deeper into what he's representing for me.

The other two cards look great, like I'm setting up a good foundation for getting paid..Patience, perseverance, and talent...I just need patience, the 7 of Pentacles.

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One of my first thoughts last Monday, when I got the King of Swords Rx, was SEX. You know, because Rx his sword is upright. Very phallic. But on Monday, I didn't get to have sex :( Today I did though! My husband and I were watching some Star Trek Voyager (season 5 episode 2 ''Drone'') and we ended up doing some weird jokey Borg roleplay.

He assimilated me. That could be kind of King of Swords Rx...right?

Sleeping In, Going Out

XIX The Sun Rx

5 of Cups Rx

4 of Swords Rx

Okay, so I slept until 12:30 in the afternoon today. Crazy late, and I went to bed at midnight last night...I think the Sun Rx might be referring to that fact that I've wasted most of my day. I don't think I'll be clocking into work today...eh, it's Friday, it'll be okay, maybe I'll log in tonight.

5 of Cups Rx...okay, cool. A friendship comes together...I've been thinking I need to schedule a video chat date with my best friend Chrissy who lives upstate...

And the 4 of Swords Rx...good, good. I've been exercising since the beginning of the month (ha, three days ago).

Not much to say about this one except it looks like I've wasted the day, but I'll be active enough for energy tonight!

Help From A Nasty Bitch Gets Me What I Want

3 of Wands

Queen of Swords Rx

V The Hierophant Rx

Help from a bitch gets me what I want. That pretty much sums up what I'm seeing here. Although, that 3 of Wands...I'm not waiting for a loan to come through, nor have I asked anyone for help with a project...I'm not sure what that refers to...for me. I'm not currently in collaboration with anyone...maybe I should be? I've recently been posting on the Aeclectic Tarot forums and receiving clarity for some readings I've been doing. Maybe I'm the Bitchy Queen today...I guess it will get me what I want. I get to break rules and it works out for me (Hierophant Rx).

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This reading describes Perfectly my husbands day. I did a daily for myself, but ended up predicting what he was going through all day.

He recently had a shirt altered and the women there messed it up. He wanted a refund and was given the run-around and so he finally lodged a complaint with the Better Business Bureau. He called be yesterday to finally see if he could speak with the owner. He was argued with by the woman who answered the phone and then handed off to another woman they said was the owner. Up until this time the owner had been referred to as a ''he.'' He was very polite and she was, well, the Queen of Swords Rx. She was willfully ignorant of his position and was still refusing to refund his money.

Then he got another call from the post office, this is the area he does end up getting his way (Hierophant Rx). The woman he spoke with was very Queen of Swords Rx and gave a long winded explanation of what he'd have to do in order to get his magazines and comic books to him without being folded in our mailbox. She seemed surprised he was willing to go through so many hoops. He is. And it looks like any comics we end up ordering will be delivered, unfolded, to our apartment complex's office.

Apprehension, Slacking, and A Message

Ace of Cups Rx

10 of Wands Rx

Page of Wands

Afraid to start a new relationship...yeah, I get that. I recently met a coworker online who gave me her number, but I'm too shy and intimidated to call. But what about the 10 of Wands Rx? I mean, obviously, I'm not making much money and my husband is picking up the slack...but I'm not putting all responsibility on him. I DO take care of our home...and even more so lately. Doing everything so he doesn't have to, I'd hate to feel like I am putting all the burden on him for anything beyond financial support. Well, I guess there's some good news coming my way with that Page.

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Received my paycheck in the mail today, Page of Wands. I wasn't expecting the check today either, so, yay!

10 of Wands Rx....I did a lot of work after seeing that, didn't want to let my husband down. I don't think I've put any burden of responsibility onto anyone else, that I know of anyway.

Felt good about today, motivated and energetic. Exercised for the first time in a month and I worked on a free reading for a woman on Facebook.

8 of Swords

3 of Wands

XVIII The Moon

Isolation and feeling cut off from the world. True. In fact, that's what my husband and I were tangentially discussing before he left for work this morning. How he has someone to talk to at work...how I don't want him discussing all my failures with his boss, basically. I have no one to discuss my personal life with as I have no close friends or even coworkers (I work from home).

I have had a coworker ask to do a mutual reading together recently (3 of Wands). I contacted her via Facebook, but I'm too shy to actually call her. I don't want to interfere with her schedule or time...even though I'm sure I'm not. I guess I'm also intimidated to do a reading for her...I shouldn't be, I'm an adequate reader (The Moon).

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Does The Moon have to do with sex? I read that but...in my readings it hasn't had to do with sex so far...until today! We were trading phone pics with each other and when he came home I was dressed in something I knew he'd think was sexy. His clothes. He loves seeing girls in army pants, because he's strange like that. He doesn't think tight female pants are really that sexy because he figures the pants make the shape on it's own. But put a round ass in a pair of army pants and then you can really see the shape. I guess it makes sense...And I put on a disgusting punk shirt he made for a fake band he named called CHICKEN TRUCK and it's covered in stains. He loved it!

Am I In Trouble? Daily Spread

King of Swords Rx

0 The Fool

Page of Cups

I'll be dealing with people today, a package may get delivered. I have been waiting on a comic to be delivered. That King of Swords Rx is scaring me...I have this irrational feeling anyway that I'm doing something wrong, that I'm in trouble for something...but right now I don't see how he would apply. This King usually has to do with the law or an authority...don't have anyone like that in my life. We paid off Billy and Debbie last night (my parents) for the debt on the car...that's the only ''authority'' types I can think of that would be angry...

The rest of the reading looks positive, real positive in comparison. There's a chance to begin anew with the Fool.

King of Swords Rx + The Fool = I'll feel bullied into making a decision, I'll feel vulnerable and end up making the correct decision for myself and standing my ground; In a few days I'll receive confirmation I have done the right thing (Page of Cups).

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I got nothing. No real follow up except that it was a real nothing day. There was no delivery in the mail. I mailed a bunch of movies back to Netflix....Luckily, no King of Swords Reversed situation...you know, yet.

Try Harder, Listen Up, Be Fat

I The Magician Rx

Page of Swords Rx

XX Judgement Rx

I never noticed before, but Judgement is misspelled in the Connolly deck.

No executive decision today to turn these right side up, this is the norm for me, to leave the cards be. Yesterday, though, I was right on! Turning those cards upright exactly described how awesome my day went!

Today, a holiday, I feel like slackin'. Is that was The Magician Rx is about? And the Page of Swords Rx is promising, like I was expecting bad news, but I'll receive relief instead. Okay.

And XX Judgment Rx, hmmm...this year I've been associating this cards with dieting. And with Thanksgiving being here yesterday, and all the leftovers today, fuck, I'm eating what I want. I'll report back later in the day, or maybe later in the week to give a better prediction of what these cards mean. I can only jot off so much right now, I just woke up, and my husband is talking to me, so I can't think as far as predicting at the moment.

Some Daily Spreads I just Wanna Throw Out

6 of Wands

2 of Pentacles

XIX The Sun

When I first laid out the spread, all the cards were Reversed. And, you know, fuck that! It's finally Thanksgiving! After all the shopping fiascoes, we finally did it last minute last night, and saved 130$. All that delay worked out in the end. (6 of Wands)

I did my precooking yesterday and have 4 dishes to finish up today. Things like the biscuits and pies, things I want to serve warm. There was quite a bit of metaphorical juggling of cooking different dishes between last night and today, 2 of Pentacles. And now I get to show off my cooking, again, 2 of Pentacles.

It feels like a SUN kind of day already.

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Cards lined up exactly with the day! A good time was had by all.

I've just done some research into the 6 of Wands and found that it's a mercurial card.

It is Air on the house of Virgo, the Sixth, house of the servants and work, of exact science and the academy, of health and food, of the art of decoration and the interior of the house, as well as of the retail dealer. The element of thought (Air) on the earthy house of Virgo must naturally bring forth knowledge of every detail and reveal mistakes or shortcomings; it promotes efficiency, and the latter is one of the principal meanings of the card. Here again is a double mercurial expression, so this card must denote special abilities, capacities, technical insight; moreover food questions and medicine, medicaments and nursing; practical arrangement of details, but as Virgo "kills the prophets," this card may contain some or other discrepancy in the philosophical or logical, theoretical or strictly just side of things.

Anxiety, Food, Research: Daily Spread

7 of Pentacles Rx

Queen of Pentacles

II High Priestess

The 7 of Pentacles Rx refers to the fact that it's been so difficult, over the past 4 days, to get money out of the freakin' bank! Yes, I am concerned today will be no different, but it just HAS to be! BoB is getting off early to get money out of the bank so we can finally go shopping. Last night we even spent time setting up our online access to our accounts in an attempt to transfer funds into my account because I'm the one with a bank card. BoB is so impatient and impulsive with the bank that he's recently closed his checking account and then reopened a new one, and so, new checks were sent. He opted for starting his check at the 100 mark. You can't do that! No one accepts them that low. He didn't know that...of course, and he opted for no bank card. Arggghhh! But whatever, today will be the day!

I will be the big old fat Queen of Pentacles earth mother who cooks for everyone. Can't wait. I've been doing a ton of research into finding the *perfect* recipes (High Priestess) and I'm still currently looking for a candied yam with a hard candy shell on top. If I find or not will be another story.

Freedom, Fantasy, and Travel: Daily Spread

8 of Swords Rx

XVIII The Moon

Knight of Wands

Freedom, fantasy, and travel. Those are my first impressions. I wonder what I'll be escaping (8 of Swords Rx)? I pretty much always stay in my apartment and my only plan for leaving today is going to the grocery store. The Moon card suggests some kind of fantasy, maybe that's a method of escape? This is an interesting spread. I'm curious to see who I'll talk to that will help with ''freeing'' me. It looks like I'll be inspired and less tense than normal. A person (Knight of Wands) will inspire my mind (swords + moon) to''letting go'' of it's imprisonment.

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For one, I never left the house at all today. I did reach out online to my first pro bono tarot reading on Facebook. A woman just wrote me and expected a reading from me, no introduction, no telling me how she found me, shit, she didn't even ask, she just wrote and expected a reading. And I took inspiration from a true humanitarian co-worker of mine and decided to go ahead and do a reading for this charity case. So, I reached out in a way.

I got a ton of sleep, which is to what the The Moon was referring.

November 22nd 2010 Daily Spread

III The Empress Rx

6 of Wands

5 of Pentacles Rx


Looks pretty good to me! I am very excited to cook for Thanksgiving, and I will be cooking for my husband's family for the first time. We only got married about 5 months ago and I want to show off my cooking skills. We'll be going grocery shopping tonight and my husband said something about only having so much money to shop with (Empress Rx), but I think I can pull it in at a reasonable price (6 of Wands). And the 5 of Pentacles Rx is always nice to see, there may be some practical opportunity for me to do everything I want with this banquet that I'm not seeing now. But I am pretty sure I have things covered!

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Ah, so, ok...that Empress Rx mixed with the 5 Pentacles Rx. We went to the grocery store and had all our groceries bagged, in the cart, ready to go, and our check got declined! Through no fault of ours. We had more than enough in the bank, the grocery store just decided our check was unrecognizable or some shit. Fucking tele-check bullshit! So, we are gonna have to go through the whole tedious process again tonight.

November 21, 2010 Daily Spread

Justice Rx

Ace of Pentacles Rx

2 of Cups Rx

Yeah, this doesn't look like the most pleasant day. I'm not actually involved in any kind of legal case so I'm just going to go with the fact that I will be judged harshly today. By the 2 of Cups Rx, I'm going to say it will be by my husband. And that I won't make any money today. Awesome.

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This reading was likely a leftover from the fight my husband and I had the day before (November 20th). I was still feeling hurt when I woke up to do my daily spread and, fuck, seeing this didn't feel good either. Honestly, when I saw the Justice Reversed, I saw a limp dick, implying no sex. See how the sword hanging upside down looks like a flaccid penis? And I hate not having sex, for any reason. I don't care if we're fighting, let's have some hate sex! But my new husband, he's so not into that.

However....we were back to our nice selves around noon and by 4 pm we were having some of the best sex... I am having an issue with menstruating this year, and for the past 18 DAYS I was bleeding. My husband is the cunnilingus king and was really wanting to go down on me...and we finally got our chance! And it was so unbelievably amazing!!!! I mean he was giving me orgasms from his mouth that, normally, can only happen with his dick. So, I'm just going to pay more attention I see cards like this come up.

So yeah, I should have cleared my mind a bit more before doing a fresh daily spread.

November 20th 2010 Daily Spread

Yeah, so I'm not really into placement meanings for 3 card daily spreads. I never was originally, but then I experimented (the experiments are posted in this blog); now I just read the cards intuitively.

2 of Pentacles

9 of Wands

5 of Wands

Juggling some stressful situations, although it looks like I'll be alert (9 of Wands) and easily able to think on my feet. It might feel like a struggle because it feels like I'm not receiving any recognition or rewards for my efforts (5 of Wands).

I want to help (9 of Wands) but I may just end up getting a bit misunderstood, or I will misunderstand (5 of Wands) and not feel like I did help. Although, this is just today's influence....if I adjust (2 of Pentacles) and keep flexible that will keep me straight.

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Today was going along fine; my husband was out all day in Richmond with a friend of his. I got to just stay home and relax and wait for calls...but 5's do mean fights...So, when he came home he decided to let me know that I am a failure on all counts.

November 19th 2010 3 Card Daily Spread

3 of Swords Rx

8 of Wands

3 of Wands Rx

A set of 3's and the 8 of Wands implies that there is another person I am trying to contact for help. It's with a heavy heart I'll be asking and it looks like I won't get the help I want. At least not today. But there will be communication, by the look of the 8 of Wands. Email in particular.

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Meh, okay I was a bit off. I thought about what I did do today and realized what this reading was in reference to...

I spent a bit of time on Facebook looking for and ex of mine. He has a pretty common first name, so there were like 500 entries with the same name, despite his last name. Didn't find him.

November 18th 2010 Daily Spread

The spread:



Woman of Crystals Rx

Man of Crystals Rx

6 of Crystals Rx



All of the same suit, Cyrstals, which translates as Swords, which has to do with the Mind. Over thinking, over analyzing, etc. Since the Man and Woman are of the same suit, it implies a couple. Myself and Bob are over thinking things today, making the Woman touchy and defensive, and the Man disorganized. (Due to the reversals)



I haven't seen BoB today, yet. He's at work, and I'm at home waiting for a new call. And now I'm nervous and over thinking this spread.



The outcome is the 6 of Crystals Reversed. In the Voyager deck the card is titled ''Confusion.'' With this reversal I would think it would be a kind of confusion resolved with logic and clarity. The blue crystal in the card jumps out at me, but undetermined in it's meaning.



I will have to come back tonight to report what the day has been like.

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I was so concerned about having an argument with my husband that I just kept my head about me. Turned the reversed cards upright. My husband, as represented by the Man of Crystals Rx, did have a confusing day at work. Machines weren't doing what they should. The 6 of Crystals Rx showed Clarity and that is what came through.

Situation, Advice, Encouragment: A 3-Card Spread

I lost my job as a cook at the beginning of this week and I'm not too happy about it. I'm back to doing tarot full time, which is slow, but not dead. My husband won't let me drink, which I totally deserve too, what with losing a job and all...

Alright, so the situation is the Tower. Yeah, getting ''let go'' from the restaurant was pretty much out of left field for me. The advice with the other cards seems to be saying move forward. Move forward with encouragement from an enthusiastic young man, put my happy face on, and be like a ram charging ahead. Charge forward.

This is what I've been doing this week, jumping into the tarot reading game with some of what I've taken away from the restaurant. See, the place I worked was incredibly slow, so there was a lot of waiting around for a customer, the jumping to when they came in...I'm taking this to waiting around for calls. I'm much less nervous and I have more discipline this time around, after having to go to a job outside the home.

Working from home is awesome! And I'm very lucky my new husband is so supportive of me doing this job!

Determining Attraction Spread

I'm trying out a new spread I just learned called The Determining Attraction Spread. When the cards are thrown it will look like this:

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2.............4............3
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1. What quality is So-&-So attracted to (in general, not in you)?
2. How does So-&-So view me physically?
3. How does So-&-So view my personality?
4. What would So-&-So think of being on a date with me?*
5. Advice on how to be most attractive to So-&-So?

*Interpret ''date'' how you will.

Here's what it looked like for myself, doing a test reading on how my newlywed husband feels toward me.



This seems like a great reading for using ''The Sexual Key To The Tarot'' by Theodor Laurence. I adore this book, it is so detailed in it's interpretation of each card, from the minor to the major, and I would love to read anything else by the author.

The first card, XXI The World Rx, seems to indicate he's into women who are sexually playful and very open sexually. However, the reverse status indicates that he would prefer them not to be promiscuous. She is insatiable and erotic yet monogamous, ''stuck'' on one man.

The second card, Ace of Swords, reveals how he views me physically and, according to Laurence's interpretation, he sees me as having a winning clitoris! I am able to overcome hesitant sexuality!

The third card, 6 of Cups, represents his feeling about my personality and this card definitely shows how we have been friends for 15 years. We've known each other since I was in high school and we've stayed friends this whole time. He feels comfortable around me.

The fourth card, VII The Chariot, describes how he'd feel being on a ''date'' with me. The chariot is a fitting description because I know how much he'd like to take me places. His perfect date varies from bicycling 20 miles to long walks to long road trips.

The final card, The Page Of Wands, describes how I can be more attractive to him. I could write him letters describing new projects, or texting him is more likely. If I texted him more often.

Yeah, this is a pretty safe spread. I trust it. Seems pretty appropriate.

A Different Daily Spread

I just went to the Aeclectic Tarot forums to find a better daily spread; I really need one that fits me correctly. And I found this one by Thorhammer. So, here we go, I'll try it for a few days and see if it helps with understanding my day better.

It's just that I found with the previous spread I was using, the cards were correct, but the meaning of their positions didn't make any kind of sense to me or my day.

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1. What will I do well today?

2. What do I need to leave behind in today?

3. What do I need to take forward from today?

I am the type of reader who always reads in inverted cards as they are. However today I get the feeling, since they all came up inverted, and it's a deck I haven't used for a while (Voyager) that I should turn them right side up. Really, it's just a feeling I have....but should I? Eh, fuck it, I'll leave them as they are....



1. Woman of Wands Rx

2. Nine of Wands Rx

3. Woman of Crystals Rx

I will do well today to leave behind infidelity? Well, that's a laugh! I just got married 2 months ago and I'm currently only seeing him, and he me. Maybe it's pointing to something else, like being manipulative sexually. Like I shouldn't whine for sex, or count how many times we're doing it a week....I hope this card is only pointing to that.

I will do well in being tired today. LOL. Being injured and needing to rest and take care of myself. Although, I'm not injured am sore. I've been working out non-stop for two months without making any progress with my body that anyone can see. I've recently trained to the point where I can run a continuous mile and I'm very proud of that, but I woke up too late today to do my proper workout. I'm busy waiting on my groceries to be delivered. And when he gets here, I'll want to eat I'm sure. Or it's telling me I'll be great at self-deception today. Awesome! Looks like a shitty day.

I need to take forward from today some kind of confrontation. These two bitches in this reading alongside the 9 of wands Rx looks pretty dicey. Like I'm headed for some kind of tense situation.

I will have to report back tonight to report what kind of day I've had.


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All I did today was RELAX! And it was great!

Normally I exercise for 2 hours in the mornings without taking days off. I believe a habit is a habit and if I only did it 3 times a week I would forget to exercise at all.

This was a rare day, I relaxed, drank beer and ate ice cream. It was awesome. And this morning (Thursday the 15th) I was relaxed enough to run a complete mile. So, it was well worth the R&R.

No women to speak of, I didn't see or talk to anyone but BoB, my husband.

The Darkest of Easy Going Days

First off, my daily spread today included:

XIX The Sun Rx for the gift of the Spirit. Seems a little shady, perhaps I won't get to have sex today?

4 of Wands Rx for my Mindset. Very easy going, little passion. Yeah, I'm not going to get to have sex, but it could still be a pleasant day. However, I'm not concerned with sex as much as I am concerned with making some MONEY today!

XVII The Star Rx is my Action card for the day. Am I going to get sick? I feel great, I'm up early, I have plans to workout even harder (or just as hard as I did yesterday). I mean, I just watched ''G.I. Jane'' the other day and now I am super inspired! Shouldn't this card be upright?

The Sun and The Star both showing up reversed, makes for a darker day, but I feel wonderful. I will be back later tonight to see how this will play out. (last time I had the Star Rx in a daily spread I felt great but by the end of the day I had a little diarrhea, lol)

6 of Pentacles, King of Swords Rx, The Wheel Rx

3 Card Daily reading.

6 of Pentacles: What Spirit is giving me today is good karma. On a physical actual plane today I will be given a sense of proportion and balance. Sounds great, I will have to come back at the end of the day to report how this was understood. This card usually seems so vague to me, most of the 6's do.

King of Swords Rx: My mindset today doesn't look good, I mean Jesus! Feeling like a tyrant? I feel really positive right now, my mindset is one of action and not pussing out, but not being tyrannical. This may sound dumb, but I've been watching movies about being in basic training lately. And last night I watched ''G.I. Jane'' and it was awesome. It's about being in SEAL basic training, man it was very inspirational and now I just want to increase my workout time! But this image looks too aggressive and strategic in a dark selfish manner. But maybe it's just exaggerrated for hyperbolic effect?

The Wheel of Fortune Rx: My action plan today involves losing. Maybe losing some weight? That would be awesome!!!! I guess we shall see, I mean I don't have any money to begin with so....I don't have any of that to lose out on.

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The follow-up:

The King of Swords Rx may have to do with two things. First I did go out and apply for a part-time job and the owner is a dark haired man. If the card refers to him I may have to do something outstanding to get his attention for the job.

Second, and this is more likely, I did a reading for a Bounty Hunter friend of mine. He is looking for a guy who jumped bail and he thought he had some new good leads, but my readings were less than positive. Basically, he will not find the man he's looking for, hence, the Reversal. Since this King has to do with Justice and Law Enforcement and he is reversed I am sure this is what was portended.

The placement of this card suggested my mindset for the day. And that's why I normally do not use spreads with placement indicators, they can be too limiting. But I was giving it a try for these three-card daily spreads. Maybe I will search out a new type of daily spread? We'll see.

My workout was incredible today! I usually just do 35 minutes on an elliptical trainer and so today I also included a 1 mile run. Which I ran for most of the mile, I just need to learn some more about endurance. If I keep doing this for a week I should be able to run the entire mile, right? Sure I can! Then later in the day I had my husband of 2 months get me started on learning how to do chin-ups. He knelt underneath me to push me up to the bar and I did what he called ''negs.'' Obviously, I could pull myself up, I could only barely hold myself up there. For about 1 second, but he was encouraging saying that doing a neg will help me learn. By the 3rd try I was already doing a bit better. Then I went on to attempt push-ups. Ok, a push-up.

Possibly this is what the Pentacle card referred to? I mean, it's physical. Because there was no bonus or money involved in my work at this time. I didn't even get a single call today. But I knew that because of getting the Wheel Rx...

All in all a decent day though...

Bachelorette Party and 3-Card Daily Reading

Spirit (what spirit is giving),

Mind (what’s your mindset), Action (what to do today)

Knight of Pentacles Rx I may be in touch with a person who wants something for nothing, and/or is passive and careless.

7 of Pentacles My mindset today is one of trying to plan financially for the future. And this is true, I've been actively planting ''seeds'' of my business on Craigslist this morning and trying to brainstorm ways to do readings for people at the beach, but I kind of need money to make money on that front. Meaning, I need to be at the beach to do readings and the way I've done this in the past is by hanging out in a bar with booths and doing readings for people. I need to have enough money to hang out in a bar in the first place, and not get too drunk to do readings.

Knight of Wands Rx My action today, again, is represented by a Knight not on his horse. This is the kind of person who is lacking in willpower and not moving forward, a trip delayed. True, I'm not going to the beach today, but that's because my plan today is to stay in and work the phone line.

Last Saturday I got to be the entertainment at a bachelorette party! It is so much easier to do face to face readings, it doesn't matter how large the group. I don't know what it is about the phone, but I get so nervous with anticipation that it almost makes me never want to work the phone line....I really would prefer doing the readings in front of the client.

It was awesome! I did a presentation of my abilities with the Tarot and Geomancy in front of a group of 15 women. The readings were for the bride to be, and then I did readings for all the individual women in the back bedroom for the next 3 hours. All of the women got a hand written note of their readings, as well...15 cold reads in a row and never once was I inaccurate!

I haven't done a session like that since November of 2008. It has been a while and I am so happy to be back into it again.

Spirit, Mindset, Action Daily Card Reading

Todays Daily card reading seems a bit more positive than yesterdays. The spirit of the day not feeling under attack or paranoid. My mindset is one of being FREE! (And it's true, without even thinking this morning I popped a nicorette in my mouth. Normally it's a struggle with myself since there are cigarettes always in the house due to my husband.....trying to quit is more difficult since I'm living with a smoker) And my course of action today is to wait, as indicated by the 3 of Wands reversed.

The 3 of Wands is a bit confusing to me, since I'm currently not waiting on a loan or anything. But I am just sitting here waiting for customers to call....